A decade running...

Ten years ago,
A decade
still the memory
won't fade

I tried running away
from the great salt lake
City
What a pity
Pitiful sight
Walking along a snowy highway
tears running down my face

While you are drinking
I'm thinking

I hate this place
This is NOT the place

Trying to get away
from you
Your part time faith
Jack
of no trade
Yet I paid
the price

You hate women
Your charm
Harms
Tongue lashes
Razor blade gashes

Fear
Cruelty
ignited my desire
to escape
Overloaded mind
Bleeding heart
Purse in hand

Seeking freedom
on the freeway
Destination unknown
Since I thought I was home
With you

I was blue
From the -obvious to me now-
Red
Flags and tall tales
Yet still I fell
Fail
As you sat in jail
For harming another
Mother

I wasn't one yet

I don't regret
the gift I was given
after your sins
threatened to swallow me whole

You showed me
you're violent
I kept silent
Bottle to the face
because I didn't know my place

In your eyes
Distorted mind
My eyes, blind
to the deception

You tried to rob me of my smile
Yes, it took awhile
to recover
uncover
the lesson
behind your obsession

Love lives here
just not with you
I found it within
deep inside of me
My core
Where a whisper
turned into a roar

I broke my silence
after looking in her stellar eyes
Fruit of my womb
Giver of life

Ripped off the disguise
of devoted wife
Shedding
heavy layers
till I was lighter

Now I'm the fighter
Exposing
You
while you dance around
Silly clown

Old dog
Old tricks
Only misses
No hits

Nothing new
From you
You never listened

Adios
Past life
decisions

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